I never thought i would sit here and ask for prayers, but there is so much negativity around me, and i pray, that my parents see the pain ive been through, and accept it that i enjoy going to church to better my relationship with god and my inner emotions, im struggling with a lot of, bad thoughts, a lot of sins, and i wish to stop, i wish to stop having bad thoughts, i wish to stop wishing bad things upon myself, i wish to stop indulging in so many bad things i just dont know how to, but i also wish to get baptized